" An intelligent man is sometimes forced to be drunk to spend time with his fools. "
Sometimes when you're with somebody new, you need to do things with their preferable ways, learn to blend in with them, laugh the way they do it...and observe them. If you have to be a fool to make them laugh out loud, then go on.
That way works for me, and I'm gladful that I have my friends with me, as I don't want to create a gap between Us, because that gap will only create an 'unfriendly awkward relationship'.
But on the other side, if you overdo it, they will look down on you, they will underestimate you and showed less respect to you.
To make things worse, they will think of you behaving 'mcm budak-budak', and you will always be their centre point of making jokes.
Those are the consequences that I have to bear for now. I don't ask for 'Respect', just a little bit of a decent relationship, where nobody gets hurt. I can be hard, a bad ass like I used to be, but that is just not the right way for me any more.
I will keep doing this my way, but I don't know for how long I can keep it up.
